某些事的取舍让我很无奈

某些事的处理又让我很烦心

也许可以不在意他人眼光

但自己内心的平衡却已打破

 

周五皎洁的半轮月色

却难以掩饰内心的无助

仰面朝天凝望天花板

只期望有个倾诉的对象

 

一秒一秒的逝去

一片一片的模糊

闭上双眼

期待明天

 

两天的整理

带回稍许平静

看开一切

只是那么无谓

 

 

 

 

Vincent
Don Mclean

Starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey
look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils
catch the breeze and the winter chills
in colors on the snowy linen land.
And now I understand
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.
Starry starry night
flaming flowers that brightly blaze
swirling clouds in violet haze
reflect in Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue
morning fields of amber grain
weathered faces lined in pain
are smoothed beneath the artist's loving hand.
And now I understand
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they did not know how
perhaps they'll listen now.
For they could not love you
but still your love was true
and when no hope was left in sight on that
starry starry night.
You took your life as lovers often do,
But I could have told you Vincent
this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.
Starry starry night
portraits hung in empty halls
frameless heads on nameless walls
with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met
the ragged men in ragged clothes
the silver thorn of bloddy rose
lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
And now I think I know
what you tried to say to me
and how you suffered for your sanity
and how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen they're not listening still
perhaps they never will.

 

 PS：这首歌是为了纪念 Vincent van Gogh 名作 Starry Night 而作的

 

如此熟悉如此巧合

同名之曲静心寻味

just enjoy it

想着那个人所以睡不着

睡不着所以想着那个人

无限死循环

昨夜我失眠了

      清明，原本是要回家上坟的，作为一年一次悼念故人之举，今天却没有收到要回家的通知，也许是寒假中外婆的离去已经算是一次了吧，然而人到清明总有一丝丝的伤感与哀思，忆到他们生前的点点滴滴，俨然历历在目。

 

      忆故人，看往昔，微有惆怅。林中点点斑斓，星稀驳影，日落西山。昨日依稀如梦，重拾别离旧绪。待月明，怎堪黯然神伤。

     

 

      昨天寝室的某位仁兄打球的时候和人绊了下，结果回来一副痛苦+狼狈的样子。后来医院回来才知道有些许骨裂，还被打上了厚厚的石膏，说是伤筋动骨要休息100天，突然想到了我上学期也有那么次脚扭伤，同样医生说伤筋动骨要休息100天，实际上我2个礼拜就能走路了，还算恢复得不错，不过现在把脚做出某姿势依然有隐隐疼痛，也许这就是没100天的后遗症吧。看着室友如此上下床铺的艰辛，每天只能躺在床上，估计上课都不能去了，感觉自己还是有满深的体验的，我虽说没那么严重，不过倒也是借着这个逃了一个一个半礼拜的课 =.= 其实当时还是可以动的，如果真是好孩子，我想肯定会坚持去上课的，然而我本质上不是好孩子。。。似乎到了大学逃课已然成为一种很自然的事了，平时对于自己不感兴趣的课也总能找无数各种各样的借口来翘。在大学真正让我学到的是如何在两三天内啃完一本书然后考试考个80分，也许有点偏激，但是基本是事实吧。

      借口，是自己不想做某事而为自己找的一个听上去有理然而却无理的理由。每个人都有自己想做或不想做的事，想见或不想见的人，一旦遇上别人叫你做不想做的事，不想见的人找你的时候，很多时候碍于朋友间的感情不能直接拒绝，于是借口便应运而生。然而既然生了，何时会灭，也许真要等夜不闭户的时候才会消失吧。人总有私心，事难免借口。想借口拒绝别人的时候想想将来自己被别人借口的情形，也许就没有那么多借口了吧。